Brittnay’s Corner: I Used To Be A Use To…

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I remember being the girl that would just “go with the flow.” Not honoring what I truly wanted in relationships, hardly ever objecting or resisting the suggestions and opinions of others, making their thoughts and ideas more important than my own. Yeah, I USED to be THAT girl… (**cues Meek Mill “Use To Be”)

Nowadays I’ve grown into my own person, accepting and embracing ALL of the WOMAN that I have become. Especially because I’ve worked so hard to become HER. But I’m noticing the strangest thing happening all around me simultaneously. As my evolution brings me closer to my SOURCE, and now that I am understanding and embracing EXACTLY who I AM; as I become more comfortable with myself, and as I express more self-love and become more vocal about my own desires and feelings, I’m noticing that this evolved version of myself doesn’t sit well with everyone.

In the past few weeks alone, I’ve experienced a barrage of criticism from complete strangers, and some friends, involving their perception of me. I’ve heard things such as, “You come off as a little arrogant,” a bit aggressive, cocky, like you might not take direction very well.” I’ve been told to tone it down,”don’t be so articulate, you’ll intimidate people” (Mind you, this has been said to me in regards to my work place mainly).  It ALL just COMPLETELY blows my mind!! Can you tell?… For me, it feels weird because I was always the one that was considered “so easy going,”… but I wasn’t happy within. But now… OH BUT NOW!

Had I taken any of this criticism to heart, I would be back where I was years ago when I was insecure, indecisive, and oh so lost… Confidence didn’t come easy for me, its something that I’ve intentionally and diligently worked at. I’ve taken some major blows emotionally and psychologically throughout my life, and ultimately I decided that I wouldn’t allow any of it to define me. Still today it takes constant reinforcement and “reminders to self.” I now embody more confidence than I ever have because I choose to believe in myself, and I completely trust myself to always do whats right and what resonates as true from within me. My life experiences have taught me that no one else has the answers to my path but my SOURCE and I.

Much to my surprise, this recent criticism is something that I am actually learning to embrace. To me, it symbolizes that I am on my path to being exactly where GOD wants me to be, because I KNOW who I AM, and WHAT I want, and I’m not afraid to stand up for that. I’m finally at a place where no one else’s opinion of me, or my life matters. Now being mediocre and going with the flow no longer serves me and my ultimate purpose. I was born with a greatness on the inside of me that had been suppressed and looked over for far too long. And this conscious space that I am currently in is calling me to bring forth this greatness, no matter what it involves or who it offends. “Sorry I’m NOT sorry…” I have a desire to be GREAT in ALL that I do. And I don’t care what anyone thinks, my light will shine brighter than ever before! And it feels soooo GOOOD!

Wishing you ALL Love and LIGHT!

@BCSTARKS

P.S.- Check out the song that inspired this post:

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Brittnay’s Corner: Some Crashing Waves & A “Good Year” Blimp Later… We Are All WORTHY!!

These past few days have been quite interesting. In fact, all of 2012 thus far has been continuous moments of enlightenment and heightening of the spirit for myself. But I never would have guessed the magnitude of a lesson that I would learn from my encounter with crashing waves on a seashore and a “Good Year” Blimp… Yes, the kind you see floating in the sky on NFL Game Day.

It all started with a peaceful day on the beach with my beloved mother. She and I have always been close, but as I’ve gotten older I find that we have become more open to sharing life lessons and experiences with one another. I’ve found this to be most helpful in bringing better understanding, instead of the  judgement that often shows up in a parent-child relationship. On this day, I felt like we hit a real milestone by uncovering lessons that neither of us had probably ever shared with anyone else, but it was because we are both open to growth and change. And that’s what’s most beautiful about our relationship. #ILoveThatWoman

Hours into our retreat, just as my mother had taken an important phone call, I decided to go closer to the shore to meditate. I walked into the ocean until the crashing waves nearly reach my knees, and I buried my feet in the wet sand. I closed my eyes and affirmed to myself  many great things including that “I am now attracting whatever help I need to solve problems.” The moment was so peaceful and calm that I must have spent 10 minutes in complete mental silence, but it felt like much longer. Just as I opened my eyes, I looked up only to notice a Good Year blimp floating just above me. It made me smile as I took it as a sign that the Universe had accepted my affirmations, and was letting me know that this year will be a good year… or more like a GREAT YEAR because I said so, and I believe so! 🙂

Little did I know, it would mean much more. The following day, just as I geared up to attend a workshop for school, I noticed that there was an irregular bulge in one of the tires on my car… My tires just happened to be Good Year tires (go figure LOL).  Since I was pressed for time, I called my mother to help me search for nearby tire shops that could quickly help me meet my deadline for the workshop. There happened to be a Good Year tire shop just up the road from where I was, so I went.

But let me tell you, it was a whirlwind if I ever saw one. But a beautiful one.

When the tire on my car had been changed, I handed my debit card over to the manager who did the service, only to be informed that it had been declined. Confused, I asked him  to run it again as credit… and again, declined. After calling the bank, I was told that there were insufficient funds in my account to cover the balance because a check that I was anticipating wouldn’t clear until the following day.  Talk about embarrassing. LOL

But I was most intrigued by the manager who, while I was near panic mode and slightly flustered, he remained calm, helpful, and kind. I offered to write a check, and he agreed to let me do so, except I had left my checkbook at home, which was almost 30 mins away! AHHHH!!!! I did, however, happen to come across 20 bucks in cash to put towards what was in my account, which was less than what was owed.

To my surprise, the manager began typing on his computer as I said to him, “Sir, I apologize for the inconvenience, but what are my options? At this point, I was willing to have the tire removed and try it again the next day.  Instead he told me that he was willing to go with whatever I came up with. Huh?! That’s what I said. He then handed me a receipt and told me to go ahead and take care of whatever I needed to do for the day. I looked down at the receipt and realized that he had waived the remaining balance. Why???? Because just as I perform random acts of kindness, I am very much WORTHY to receive them as well. But had I truly believed this before?

I had always believed in blessing others for the sake of making someone’s day a little brighter; to put a smile on someone else’s face; to help take away some of the stress of another’s life; for the sake of blessing another human being. But I didn’t know or realize how much I had denied myself of being blessed, by feeling unworthy. I was so moved by the managers random act of kindness that I began to cry. I shed tears because in that moment I realized that it was bigger than just his act of kindness. In that moment I accepted that the Universe was on my side, just as I had affirmed the day before. I was shown that “a decline is not a denial,” as the saying goes.

I realized that it is up to me to be open and receptive to GOD”s goodness by letting go of the things that no longer work in agreement with this belief. That includes toxic relationships, self-valuation, and most importantly THOUGHTS… especially thoughts of unworthiness.

In life, we tend to experience things that directly correspond to our predominant thoughts about ourselves, and life in general. From the relationships and jobs that we attract, to our own self-perception; life responds to us according to what we predominantly BELIEVE!

And yes, I finally get it.  I KNOW now that I AM WORTHY… WE ARE WORTHY of all of GOD”s goodness, no matter how big; no matter how small. WE ARE ALL WORTHY!

Affirm it.

Believe it.

Release all contradicting thoughts and things.

Receive it.

Love,

@BCSTARKS

If you make a “sound” decision, STICK WITH IT!

Based on the many lessons that I have, and continue to encounter, I am mostly learning the importance of sticking with whatever decisions I make; as long as when I come to my conclusion about a subject (whatever it may be) I am operating out of my best emotional state (excitement, happiness, creativity, peace, joy, love).

This is rather important because many times we go into situations feeling positive emotions about something, but eventually we get distracted from the good, and begin to shift our focus to those things and circumstances unwanted… which ultimately leaves us second guessing and regretting our choices (and could possibly cause us to miss out on once in a lifetime opportunities).

But the idea to understand is that there was a reason why you once felt so great about the conclusion that you drew. The reason is that no vision, especially when it is of “light,” (positive feelings and actions) is ever flawed. If the decision is harmless, to yourself and others, and it feels right, then IT IS RIGHT.

However, its only when you start giving your attention to what’s so wrong about it, that your experience with it becomes so wrong. Everything starts to contradict your initial excitement because your focus has gone from why it’s so great, to your being consumed with why it’s so bad.

I am a firm believer in the power of the human mind to be able to create out of a single thought, whatever experiences and things that one chooses to give their attention to. Look around, every physical thing in life is a perfect example of this idea (airplanes, cars, buildings, businesses, technology, music… all are the result of focused attention/thoughts.

The reason I’ve learned to not walk away from decisions that I make from a positive emotional state, is because when I walk through the process of those choices, I find that the greatest lessons lie there; lessons that are meant to shape us into the very people that we intend to be.

A simple shift in one’s awareness from how bad it is (now) to how great it is (when we first imagined it, and even now, as long as we choose to only entertain the good) will reveal that there is no such thing as a mistake or coincidence when you are operating from SOURCE. If you can continue to exercise faith by walking through your process, then perseverance will show you that none of your focused effort will ever be in vain.

So if you made the decision with the good intentions, stick with it, and in doing so continue to be your best self. Watch how your process turns from obstacle to open opportunity to grow abundantly. When you finally “arrive,” you can look back and say, “It was all a part of my process, and I wouldn’t change a thing.”

LOVE,

@BCSTARKS

An open gesture of gratitude…

As this beautiful journey of mine continues to unfold, I want to share with my readers my appreciation for being. Much like I would in a silent prayer, I openly thank my SOURCE for revealing to me my own power. I am grateful for those obstacles which have helped to shape my entire being, for they remind me of where my greatest and true strength lies… Yes, within.

I’m thankful for knowing that its always there when I need it; to guide me when I feel that I’ve lost my way; to help guide others to their own; to help restore peace, and to help me to become a channel of LOVE that shines brightly upon the faces of many. I am grateful for this platform, for it allows me to reach those who feel a bit of growth within themselves upon reading these posts. I look forward to continuing to become that “beacon on the hill” whose story inspires many to inspire others.

This is my open gesture of gratitude, to remind all that even amidst challenges, there is still so much more to thankful for.

Love,

@BCSTARKS

When you don’t know what you don’t know…

“…You can’t grow.”

These past few weeks have been such an “eye opener” for me. Its amazing what a dose of pure truth can do for one’s life. It’s also so amazing how so many people can have walked the face of the Earth for hundreds of thousands of years with the doors of pure power and greatness wide open for them, yet they’re unable to enter because of what they don’t know, about themselves and life… And they have NO IDEA what they don’t know [Pause] … Now that’s deep.

I write this post from a place of gratitude. From this place I am beyond thankful for all that life has brought my way, the greatness and especially the difficulties. I am thankful for the great philosophers that have come before us to help guide us in the direction of our power; those who have sacrificed their lives and freedom to make sure that eventually mankind reaches it’s fullest potential, or close to it.

I was lucky to learn at an extremely early age that every single experience in life is nothing short of a lesson in this class called life. Either you look for the lesson to improve one’s self, or continue to go through life making the same choices that lead to misfortune, poverty, and self-destruction.

“Just know that I chose my own fate, I drove by the fork in the road and went straight.”  – Jay Z

I’m mostly thankful for the insane curiosity that I have of about life. I’ve probably been on what I like to call ” a quest for evolution” since the day I was born. I’ve always had a strong desire to understand the intangibles of life so that I could operate at my best state. My quest for spiritual gain has brought me full circle to a state of peace and understanding, and an undeniable awareness of  the power that I possess… the potential for POWER that every human being that ever lived has.

The road blocks that prevents one from their source of power typically present themselves when one decides that there is only ONE ABSOLUTE TRUTH in life (one way to live, one way to think, one way of doing something, one way to be…). The dangers of believing in absolute truth is that it shuts one off from the majority of mankind, and places them in a bubble. Belief in one absolute truth keeps those individuals stuck in a seemingly never-ending cycle  because their desire to learn all but disappears (remember, they already have ALL of the answers to life in their possession, and that is their ABSOLUTE truth). We all know people like this, mostly because we all have been that person at some point.

What I now know for sure is that when you become closed off from continuing to seek wisdom and knowledge from all that life has to offer, you shut yourself off from your source of power. Open-mindedness and understanding  is the only means through which one can levitate to heights of power and prosperity that all GOD’s that ever existed intended for all mankind.

Life is a never-ending education, when you stop learning and trying to understand, you stop living, or become the living dead.

“When you don’t know what you don’t know, you can’t grow.”

Love,

@BCSTARKS