BrittNay’s Corner: What I Resist, Persists…

Today, for the first time I became aware of how often I allow my mind to be consumed by the things and experiences that don’t please me. For the first time I was able to recognize the very moment that my negative thoughts drifted so far that anxiety began to creep up on me. I started feeling anxious and couldn’t focus long enough to complete the task at hand. My emotions were all over the place, and peace was the farthest thing from me. All of this because I could not take my mind off of those things that I believed weren’t working for me. From my current 9-5 and my living situation, to my diet and all the things that I want to change. You name it, my mind was on it. And boy did it go on and on and on…

“Negative thoughts stick around because we believe them, not because we want them or choose them.”

Andrew J. Bernstein

That is, until something within me recognized the chaos that was going on my mind. I like to call that something my “inner knowing.” That inner knowing recognized the verbal and emotional assault that I subconsciously inflicted upon myself as I uncontrollably dissected how I could have and should have done things differently, or how the experiences that I was having was somehow less than fair. My observer remained still and awakened to the fact that “it” was not a part of this negative space that was being created within me. This inner knowing knew the truth about life, about my circumstances, and about what is possible for me… and “it” became my great escape from the toxic false reality that I had inflicted upon myself.  Before this moment, I could not see how I was contributing to my own suffering because I would not allow myself to dream a better reality than the one that I was experiencing. The reason I could not dream a better reality is because I would not take my mind off of what was wrong in my eyes.

“Bondage is – subjection to external influences and internal negative thoughts and attitudes.” – W. Clement Stone

After being on this journey for as long as I have, I’d like to think that I’ve learned a thing or two about the truths of life. Thus far, what I know to be true is that the things that you resist in life, will persist. That is to say that whatever one focuses on, and whatever one gives their emotional energy to tends to linger whether positive or negative. This truth lead me to the awareness that I had created a reality for myself that even I disapproved of because I refused to instead shift my attention to everything else that had worked in my favor. In the words of Abraham and Esther Hicks,”I would not let things get good for me” because I was so busy focusing on what I thought was so bad. From this space, it is nearly impossible to welcome any of what God and the Universe has in store for us when we can’t even be grateful for the blessings that we have already.

“You can’t depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus.” – Mark Twain

It was revealed to me that nothing and no one outside of me had been more instrumental in keeping me from the life that I dream of living than the negative thoughts that I allow to fester in my mind. In this moment, as I share my experience with you, I am thankful for this newfound awareness, for it has now empowered me to know just how much power I have in co-creating my reality.

It is my wish that you will be blessed and brought to a more powerful level of awareness as a result of reading my story. After all, the truth is only a thought that you keep thinking until you believe that its true. DON”T BELIEVE THE LIES!

How much can you relate to my story? I’d love to learn more. Drop a comment below, or shoot me an email at bcstarkspr@gmail.com.

Love,

@BCSTARKS

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The Perfect Stranger: Encounters that leave a lasting impression

“I had pizza and coffee with a perfect stranger today. It reminded me of my journey and why I must answer the call.”- BCSTARKS

Sometimes we get lucky enough to cross paths with just the right people at just the right time in our lives. The kind of encounters where witnessing the other’s passion and purpose somehow ignites our own. I was so fortunate to have been inspired by the perfect stranger. After back and forth dialogue over pizza about the usual run of the mill (You know, the ‘where are you from-s?’ and the ‘what do you do-s?’), we exchanged stories about spirituality and our purpose-driven quests. And as we did, we saw ourselves in one another’s story.

What I was most captivated by was this stranger’s level of passion and dedication to their love for writing. Needless to say I was reminded of my own dance with writing. I was reminded that I have unfinished business to tend to; that I have a story that has yet to be told. I was reminded that just like this stranger, I must make time for the things that fuel my spirit, even if it means turning off to the world and giving myself permission to say no to the things that distract me from my calling.

Just hours before my encounter, I had listened to a speech given by motivational speaker Les Brown on living one’s purpose. In his speech, he spoke about investing time and discipline into one’s passion and gifts so that they may be of good use to the world. He mentioned how even when one feels like they are not truly where they want to be, one can always make the most of the experience by cultivating habits of success. This shift in awareness and perception would allow one to be ready for when opportunities arise where one can share those very gifts with others. By the time an opportunity arises, one will have mastered or refined the very thing that he or she aims to become.

This is where I can be found in my journey. And in a space that doesn’t fit the bill, I choose to spend my time cultivating the traits and skills that play into my life’s purpose. As a result, I can feel several opportunities on the horizon. And you better believe that I will indeed be ready for them.

Dear stranger, yet kindred spirit… your passion is infectious!

 

Love,

@BCSTARKS

Late night ramble…

I should be heading to bed right now… at least that’s true if I go by the schedule of my current 9-5. But the truth is that my dreams keep me up at night. Ever since I was a little girl I knew that I was destined for something greater than the norm. I never did fit in with most of my peers because of everything that I was into… My natural curiosity of life’s mysteries, embracing evolution, wanting others to see themselves as GOD sees them… Nope, not the typical thoughts of a 10-year-old, or 15-year-old, or 21-year-old, and so on. But there I was, and here I am.

These dreams that I write about, they haunt me. You see, the way my journey has been set up is that I have found myself on a rollercoaster of experiences that I’d rather not have had. Even though I am a firm believer in every experience contributing our greater good, often times it seems like these unwelcome experiences are standing right between me and my visions of a life well imagined. And I can’t help but notice that with each fleeting moment, time is lost forever and never to be replenished.

My prayer in this moment is for peace. I desire peace because no matter what is happening on the surface, I want to maintain calm and certainty that I will ultimately find myself right where I need, want, and am beyond pleased to be. As I am often told by the greats,”You must find peace first, and then the things that you want will manifest. You must believe it first, and then you will see it with out. You must have faith that is unwavering and speak only of those things which you hope for as though they already are, and so it shall be.”

As I am understanding these principles more, I find that I am struggling with them. This battle is one of the mind, fear versus faith, and I win mostly… But when I lose, I lose miserably. But I am reminded that no matter how many times I fall, fail, and have my heart-broken, I should never stop picking up the pieces and trying a new approach. That is the true testament of faith and believe… To believe in an outcome, even when you cannot yet see the evidence of it.

That my friend, is where true strength, tenacity, and perseverance dwell and thrive. That my friend is where I currently reside… I’ll stop there for now.

Love,

@BCSTARKS